Birthday? More like doomsday

Damn
I hate my job very much Everytime i scheduled an appointment, the management decided to reschedule their working hours. Always. I missed out clients and at the same time i fought with my old friend from a bank on this. He promised to bring along 20 clients, due to management schedule, we clashed. Darn. I dont think that if he brings 20 people, all will sign up, I was told. The management was adamant in closing earlier. Damn Damn Damn. Apa ko ingat gym ni ko yang punya suka suki nak tukar masa?
Answer is: YES 

I hate that I am the only person without any sale Irregular working hours. Tired. Too much empathy. When the client said they have no money, what was i suppose to do? Lambast them for wasting my time? Oi ko habiskan masa aku jeklah! Is that fair? I dont think so. Kiss my beautiful, plentiful 38 inches wide a$$! 

I hate my birthday
Everytime its my birthday it will mean war between me and my husband. Reason? For 27 years I've been educated and raised to celebrate and do a birthday celebration. Until i turned 27. That is the year i married him. Now I am 31. It has been 4 years since i last celebrated my birthday. Cakes for him is a waste of money Ko kan kerja buat kek ko buatlah kek ko sendiri!. I've been told. Shit, what the piehole is a cake maker doing and making her own cake? damnnn!!! Excuse me people, the ORIGINAL Drama Queen is shutting herself in her coffin today. Its my DOOMSDAY. Thanks for the wishes, but i wanna wallow in self pity today, tomorrow and the day afterwards.
And yes i am complaining and rumbling although i vow against complaining this year but guessed i broke my resolution.

Can hear the members of the GANG TAK SEDAR UNTUNG laughing reading this post. My advise to them is,

sila pi mampus

Sheessshhh...

GODSPEED

Misery

Laughing at someone else's misery, aren't we? Sniggering at someone else's downfall, aren't we? OO...what about this...think you are always right, aren't we? And thinking that all those blessings that He has given to ALL OF YOU is a sign that you are always in the right, aren't we? well, think again...cos your day will come. And if it does, i wont laugh at you and say you deserve it. I will just stay cool and utter, let it be. Shit happens, life goes on...

do i look like i gve a damn?

Yeah...having that moody mel syndrome when everything seems not right for me Too many information being passed to me i swear one day i will die from too much info! Okay here's a quick recap on what triggered Moody Mel to reappear: 1. Please do not laugh at someone else's misery Honestly, do you think that you are a better and bigger person? 2. Believe in Heaven and Hell Do you know where you are gonna be put into? I do. Its Hell 3. Karma is a bitch I am a bitch, i acknowledge that, but nothing speaks louder than a supposedly kind hearted person who condemns and laughs at someone else's misery without knowing her true original bitchiness! 4. Marriage is hard work Damnnn.....i think I dont work hard enough. Not blaming myself. I blame my husband for my insanity...hahaha 5. I hate sales job (apart from sales that requires you to meet your target) Targets, insincerity, lies. Need i say more? LIKE I SAID, DO I GIVE A DAMN?

Trying to work out, The Style Ftness Way

Damn i am that fat!
after giving birth, the weight kinda lets themselves go but the flabby skin maintains.
Luckily i am now working at a new and upcoming gym at DNP Plaza Johor Bahru called Style Fitness. The company's website is viewable at www.style-fitness.com but alas it is under construction. Our cute IT girl is iin the midst of developing it.

But as of today me boss told me that the gym will be having its opening on 31st Jan 2011 and have arranged some class scheduled as per below:

1. Body sculpt
I have been told that this is a muscle toning class that helps to tone your abs and your shoulders.
My verdict: I wanna join this class, have you seen Fergie's abs???!!!!

2. Cardio B.A.T.H
This is not an exercise that requires you to take your bath in front of the trainer ( I dont mind if the trainer does that though, have you seen my trainers? Dammmnnnn hot!!)
It actually targets your butts, abs, thighs and hips (Hence the acronyms) which personally i think are the most troubled areas for any women who just gave birth like yours truly. I think J-Lo must have done this exercise. Heck it is one of my 2011's New Year's resolution which is to get my body in shape in order to fit into a Herve Leger dress. Well, after i completed my resolution no 1 which was TO EARN SO MANY MOOLAAAHHH!!!!

3. Belly Dance
My verdict: Sexy moves = sexy body =  hot confidence =  hot bedroom action. Need i say more? Hehehe

4. Yogasana
This is a form of yoga that helps you to test your balance, patience and endurance. You will be asked to do some poses that may seemed simple but actually, if you give it a try it is not easy as it looks
My verdict: Two kids+1 husband who acts like a 6 year-old kid = i do need some more patience in my life!

There are more classes that are being planned for that opening day which once confirmed but i will informed you later on that. Meanwhle please oogle at this lady who has twins and have a hot sexy body:

Note from editor: Awas lu J-Lo!, aku akan melawanmu!!! hahaha

My cookies looked like shit??

Yes it is a bit disheartening

i know, people are entitled to their own opinions, but to be judged by someone you first and foremost you do not know or even met in your life, kinda sucks
Yes i am a bit sensitive about this.

Currently i am dabbling in the cookie making business to earn some side income for the coming festive season. I see no harm in that. I know there are dozens and even hundreds of cookie supplier/maker/distributor in this country but what harm have i done? I am just a girl who likes baking, and some of my friends and families have tasted the cakes or cookies or treats that i baked and liked them.

Furthermore due to health reason i am currently unemployed, but do i go and sit around for money to fall onto my lap? No way, i have skills. I will use them to good use. Hey, i am ashamed when i watched that TV3 programme Bersamamu, i thought if they can endure hardship, what is stopping me from trying harder? I don't kill people or beat them up. Yet

So yes i posted some pictures of my so called amateur cookie making. To promote them to the mass. It's a form of marketing. I studied marketing for 4 years, time to use that skills. What harm have i done? Then my brother's girlfriend, being the sweetheart that she is decided to help me selling the cookies at her college. She tagged a few of her friends' name in facebook. Until one one them, by the name of Cherry Reen commented:

"It looks like shit"

Dear Ms Cherry Reen
Are you a Wilton graduate? I am not
Are you a Cordon Bleu alumni? I am not
Are you Nigella Lawson or Rachel Ray or Rachel Allen's student? I am not

What did i do next? I just deleted her comment, blocked her and yes i am airing my grouse here in my blog. I have never been so saddened in my life. Angry? Nah i am not that angry. Why should i be? I don't know her. It is just a bit disheartening that my efforts are being criticised by some teenage neanderthal without her actually knowing the real reason in me dabbling in cookie making.

I can take criticisms. I took one yesterday from my friend but no harm done. She was helping me. As i said, positive criticisms are more than welcome by me. I do admire one of my close friend who has a blog, www.diyanazman.com and she has been criticised by some people due to one of her post. Her patience in receiving all those negative comments and facing them heads on. Me? I just received one bad comment in my facebook page, and here i am already feeling like strangling that poor girl

. D, how do you do it?

Oh Madame Julia Child, how do i refrain myself from kicking that poor girl's ass?

But i do like to thank my friends who kept on sms-ing me and calling me telling me to hang in there. How can i repay you guys? From the bottom of my heart i thank thee and i promise to do better!

To that girl Cherry Reen, pray that I don't go to your college and confront you, because honestly I don't know what i will do to you, and thank you!

Cookies and confusions

Sometimes i am confused with everything that surrounds me. Lately i am busy making some cookies for the coming festive season and handling out samples with no additional costs to faraway land. A form of marketing. A form of investing. I do not want to sell something that i don't believe in. For what use?

It came to my attention that people really has a different opinions. What gives? Well if i gave out, for example the same piece of cookie to 2 different individuals, they may have different opinions. So whose opinion do i choose? Why is the other person's opinion much more important than the other half?

Confused? Don't be. I blame the tongue

So it is important here that i realised the initial intention of me slaving out in front of the oven, pouring all my blood, sweat and tears, and dragging my belly late at night from my other job as a tutor and then continue baking until the wee hours, praying that there is no ghost haunting me or knocking the glass window at the kitchen asking me

"Lahh..tak tido lagi ke kak? (my, aren't you sleeping yet my dear?)"

Aside from that having to turn deaf from my husband's constant criticism and his refusal to rub my aching Godzilla's feet from all that standing and running and baking and driving.

I do it because i love it and i do it so that i can have additional moolah for my babies so that they  can have a festive Hari Raya despite me temporarily become a housewife and i do have the strengths and will to do something that i finally like and love.

To all the critics out there who always sends out opinions without thinking of others...i would like to say this;

Thanks for your honest opinions, but ada aku pedulik?

I only take positive criticism. Like the ones my friend Nani sms-ed me just now. Her friend tasted the cookies and as her friend's mother have a bakery, it will be a valuable lesson.  So i sent in 4 samples, and she gave his 2 cents worth. I take them with glee and am determined to better the recipes. You can't expect me to be perfect at everything, correct? So those opinions do helped me. From now on there will be more chocolate chips and more love in cooking them cookies...hahaha

 Thanks so much Nanie and friend, i value them opinions! Love you babe!

Oh Madame Julia Child...how do you do it?

Atuk and granddaughters

My dad already has 2 granddaughters, my own daughter and a new niece called Wawa

He never complained even if my daughter starts to throw her terrible two tantrums, which seems aplenty these days. Even if I myself feel that my patience is running thin with every time she started to throw her movie star tantrum, he will just keep his cool.

There were so many times when both of his granddaughters will cry at the same time, he will just coolly pick them up and placed them in both of his arms and comfort them.

Here's to you dad and to more cucus to come!