Please take a listen

This song is something that is close to my heart
A song which i always hear during the moment when i feel down
The lyrics that touched me most were:

Let me tell you 'bout hardwork

Minimum wage with baby on the way

Kinda had that experience last year when i was heavily pregnant and jobless. I didn't give up. I did something that made me happier and at the same time earned me enough money in order for my family to celebrate Hari Raya and to cover the hospital bills when i delivered my baby

Now, things are getting better. Yes, I am not getting any higher pay than my old job did gave me, but I am happier and stronger. The moment I feel thankless, I will hear this song over and over again. So that I can count my blessings (and kasi taubat sikit)

Insya-Allah Maya and Sara, Ibu will do better for both of you. Be a bit patient and remember Ibu's advise.
We have a mission that Allah has gave us in this world

Amin

So what?

I actually couldn't care less on why you are banning me
I kinda always knew that you are a great pretender
yes you are, yes you are...
The moment i am up to something, you will always do something in order to make yourself look better than me!
The moment i attempt to earn extra moolah for Hari Raya pocket money, you actually went and tell others that my cookies look and taste like shit!
I just have one advise for you:

SO WHATTT???!!! 

Sad, pathetic little bejangles....hehehehe

Birthday? More like doomsday

Damn
I hate my job very much Everytime i scheduled an appointment, the management decided to reschedule their working hours. Always. I missed out clients and at the same time i fought with my old friend from a bank on this. He promised to bring along 20 clients, due to management schedule, we clashed. Darn. I dont think that if he brings 20 people, all will sign up, I was told. The management was adamant in closing earlier. Damn Damn Damn. Apa ko ingat gym ni ko yang punya suka suki nak tukar masa?
Answer is: YES 

I hate that I am the only person without any sale Irregular working hours. Tired. Too much empathy. When the client said they have no money, what was i suppose to do? Lambast them for wasting my time? Oi ko habiskan masa aku jeklah! Is that fair? I dont think so. Kiss my beautiful, plentiful 38 inches wide a$$! 

I hate my birthday
Everytime its my birthday it will mean war between me and my husband. Reason? For 27 years I've been educated and raised to celebrate and do a birthday celebration. Until i turned 27. That is the year i married him. Now I am 31. It has been 4 years since i last celebrated my birthday. Cakes for him is a waste of money Ko kan kerja buat kek ko buatlah kek ko sendiri!. I've been told. Shit, what the piehole is a cake maker doing and making her own cake? damnnn!!! Excuse me people, the ORIGINAL Drama Queen is shutting herself in her coffin today. Its my DOOMSDAY. Thanks for the wishes, but i wanna wallow in self pity today, tomorrow and the day afterwards.
And yes i am complaining and rumbling although i vow against complaining this year but guessed i broke my resolution.

Can hear the members of the GANG TAK SEDAR UNTUNG laughing reading this post. My advise to them is,

sila pi mampus

Sheessshhh...

GODSPEED

Misery

Laughing at someone else's misery, aren't we? Sniggering at someone else's downfall, aren't we? OO...what about this...think you are always right, aren't we? And thinking that all those blessings that He has given to ALL OF YOU is a sign that you are always in the right, aren't we? well, think again...cos your day will come. And if it does, i wont laugh at you and say you deserve it. I will just stay cool and utter, let it be. Shit happens, life goes on...

do i look like i gve a damn?

Yeah...having that moody mel syndrome when everything seems not right for me Too many information being passed to me i swear one day i will die from too much info! Okay here's a quick recap on what triggered Moody Mel to reappear: 1. Please do not laugh at someone else's misery Honestly, do you think that you are a better and bigger person? 2. Believe in Heaven and Hell Do you know where you are gonna be put into? I do. Its Hell 3. Karma is a bitch I am a bitch, i acknowledge that, but nothing speaks louder than a supposedly kind hearted person who condemns and laughs at someone else's misery without knowing her true original bitchiness! 4. Marriage is hard work Damnnn.....i think I dont work hard enough. Not blaming myself. I blame my husband for my insanity...hahaha 5. I hate sales job (apart from sales that requires you to meet your target) Targets, insincerity, lies. Need i say more? LIKE I SAID, DO I GIVE A DAMN?